Change is good...

Well I think???  So...I'm going to do a little venting today! Sorry!  Anyway...I have been working at a pediatric office for about a year and a half....I have learned SO much but to tell you the truth it hasn't been at all easy!!!  I came home many days in tears and feeling very down...I thought maybe I shouldn't be a nurse..maybe this isn't me! I wanted to help each patient the best that I could but I felt no matter how hard I worked or how hard I wanted to be good at something...I wasn't!! And as a result, it made it hard to go to work EVERYDAY!  With me getting a new job at Alpine Surgical Center, I was also working around 45 to 50 hours a week.  Needless to say...I was STRESSED!!  So after a few months of my busy schedule, I quit my job at the pediatric office!  Today was my last day! I can't say that I wanted to quit because I never have quit a job without having something else full time!  Also, I didn't want to feel defeated by this!  I knew I could do it but it was just taking a lot for me to feel comfortable doing my job..and I didn't like that..So, I hope that this new change will give me the confidence to continue working as a nurse.  I honestly can't see myself doing anything else!  I have always wanted to be in healthcare and hope that this new change brings some much needed happiness!  So I don't have another job yet, but I will be working at least 2 days at Alpine coming up when a nurse goes on maternity leave! I know this change was good and I hope that I can continue working on my career as a nurse with maybe just a little less stress!! :)